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Ii know the monster in my closet pretty well and I have to admit, that I’m also quite proud of it. I mean, who can say that of themselves? Usually, the monsters lurk in your closet or under your bed and wait until you fall asleep. Then they start making noised. Depending on the monster the noise will be different, what also depends on the location the monster is hiding at. Let’s say, you can make different noises in a wardrobe than under the bed and it’s heard differently by the person trying to sleep or waking up again from monster’s sounds.

This is just to give you a very basic idea of different monsters and their sounds.

The thing is, I used to be a regular kid. With regular friends and regular interests, until I discovered the monster in my closet. Screeching, scratching, making monster noises.

At first, it was really scary for me. I mean, I was a real kid with regular problems and – of course – had heard all the horror stories of monsters everywhere. Eventually, they would come out of the closet and eat you alive. The worst was, that you couldn’t tell your parents. They wouldn’t believe you.

So I kept living in fear of being eaten alive, until one crystal clear night. I could hear the monster in my closet, but this time it didn’t screech and scratch on the wooden inlay of the wardrobe. This time I heard it weeping, oh so softly.

At first, I tried to ignore it. It might be a trick after all, and as soon as I would give in, it would attack me and eat me alive. Nope, I wasn’t that easy.
Three hours later, I finally crouched towards my closet. Carefully, minding each and every step. I didn’t want to spook it and maybe change its mind, but I guess an elephant could have passed by and the monster would have continued to weep.

Eventually, I reached the closet. Blanket ready, in case the monster would jump me; I slowly – very slowly opened the closet door.

There it sat, curled up in the deepest and darkest corner of my closet. The monster. With monster tears running down his fluffy monster cheeks.

Could that monster really eat me alive? I wasn’t so sure anymore.

“Are you OK?” I asked, still having the blanket ready just in case.

The monster shook his head and sniffed heavily.

“Do you need a tissue?” I asked and handed over my blanket. The monster accepted, blew his nose and handed the blanket back.

“Thank you.” it hiccuped. Then it jumped up and hugged me. I thought I’m going to die, but instead I ended up padding the monster on the back and telling it that everything will be alright.

And in the end, it was. We became friends; best friends actually and I can only tell the other kids which are still afraid of the monsters in their closet, that they should just try and approach them. It’ll be just alright.

Black cat,
tail twitching.

Black cat,
eyes glist’ning.

Black cat,
claws showing.

Black cat,
blood flowing.

Black cat,
heart stopping.

Black cat,
witch hopping.

Black cat,
broom sweeping.

Black cat,
soul reaping.

Black cat,
tail twitching.

Black cat,
body ditching.

I'm moodyNow it’s been forever that someone managed to demotivate me and even made me stop writing completely, but the article I read just recently did exactly that.

I won’t be linking to the dreaded piece, but basically the post was about that you shouldn’t call yourself writer or even author, if you don’t have the skills. It went on, that most people fail on writing a book, because they don’t know the structure it requires and writing itself is a hard thing – and not a bit fun – anyway and should be only done, if you know what you’re doing. Therefore – of course – the author would be able to provide the fitting book that he just published.

I don’t know what he tried to accomplish with that article besides selling it to people who knew what they’re doing, but all it did to me was to demotivate me. I even started to debate with myself, tell me that

  1. I shouldn’t call myself a writer, because I don’t do it professionally
  2. I shouldn’t write in English, because it’s not my native language
  3. I shouldn’t write at all, because I basically have no idea what I am doing here

In the end, my boyfriend found me curled up on the couch with lots of chocolate and salt sticks trying to hide my moodiness. Even though he told, that I’m writing for myself and for fun in the first place, he still couldn’t make me pick up the pen again. That went on for a few more days, until I told my sister the story.

You should have seen her face!

She just threw me a stern look. “Bollocks! I also call myself a rider even though I just ride in my neck of the woods. Does that make me less a rider compared to the competition riders? Nope! I still have a horse I sit on. And just because your stories are all short, only your blog available and you didn’t publish a few hundred books, it doesn’t mean that you’re not a writer. You still have a pen and paper, and you’re still writing. So tell that dude to go away with his negativity and do your thing!”

Yes, Ma’am!

So here I am. Writing, and happy because I am a writer – no matter how good or bad – and because I have an awesome sister! Don’t let them get you down, what goes around, comes around and it’ll get them some day. Write on!

Hello everyone!

It’s Friday and the 1st October week is already over, I’m back in Ireland and – at least here – it’s chilling even though the sun is shining. I so love autumn, with all its fog, coloured leaves and the nights are just perfect for some spooky stories that make you check your closet twice before you go to bed.

Therefore, I thought it might be fun to write a shorty. Here’s the writing prompt:

Write a flash fiction or short story about the Monster in your Closet.

If you need a little motivation and doesn’t want to write alone, check out Friday Night Writers over at Twitter. They’ll be sprinting most of the day and throughout the night in a 30/10 minutes rhythm. Means, 30 minutes writing, 10 minutes break, and their hashtag is #WriteClub.

And if you need some musical inspiration, I have Gnarls Barkley with The Boogie Monster for you:

I’ve been travelling a lot in the last 1.5 years and probably had the best time of my life (so far), but in the end it’s always nice to go back home. And with home I don’t mean my current residence in Ireland. With home, I mean the little town I’m from in Germany.

home

Morning sky at home

This is where my roots lie and also where I feel utterly rooted, home and whole. I guess that’s how it is supposed to be when you go home to the place you grew up. But being home I don’t only chit-chat with my family and catch up with long time no see friends, I also tackle that “Family Project” as I like to call it by now.

You might remember, that I wanted to write my family’s story and right now, sitting in my parent’s kitchen with a nice cup of cappuccino, I’m starting to collect memories, descriptions, quotes, and stories about the people of my family. I hope I won’t mess up things too much and end up with something I can actually show to my family to read, but we’ll see. It’s still a long way to go.

But what I actually wanted to say with that last paragraph is, that it adds to the wholesome feeling that I belong somewhere. I missed that lately without actually knowing what it was, so it’s good to have that feeling back again. It’s not that I don’t enjoy living elsewhere or that I don’t feel good there. It’s just so different from actually being at the place I called home my entire life and will keep doing so.

What about you? Do you know where your roots lie? And how it makes you feel to get back home?